On My Own
It's week two of Chris being back at work. Things have been going well. I've ventured out a couple of times on my own with the two kids, but have since been hanging low around the house. I felt like I needed to go out right away so fear wouldn't build up over it, however, I don't have enough control over nursing yet to feel like it's worth it. Ellis still has an unpredictable feeding schedule during the day and when he does eat, he eats slow and seems to unlatch quite frequently so we're both covered in milk afterwards. Nursing discretely is just not an option many times.
The two places we've been to are the Wampatuck State Park and the mall. I thought the park was a good first choice because hardly anyone, besides a few bikers passing by, is ever there and I figured Caroline could run around without getting into too much trouble. Of course, the day I went the high school boys track team was jogging by as I was struggling nursing Ellis and Caroline found a bunch of buckets of catepillar eggs some school was trying to collect to mess with. The mall experience gave me flashbacks of going out with Caroline for the first time. It was cold, rainy and I didn't have either kid dressed warm enough and not five minutes after I got there, I was already scrambling to find a ladies room to nurse in. Why I didn't run into a dressing room, I don't know. Instead, I went into the JC Penney ladies room. Disapointed to find no sitting area, I was forced to drag the kids into the handicap stall, occupy Caroline with some yogurt raisins and sit on the floor next to the pee-sprayed toilet nursing my baby. This being my second time around, I have no excuse for not mapping out a better plan beforehand. And yes, Ellis threw up everything he drank all over me when he was finished.
Things are definitely a bit crazier with two. I actually have a deeper appreciation for both Caroline and Chris; Chris because of how much of a help he's been and Caroline because of the patience she's proven to have with me while I adjust to having a newborn again. In some ways, it is like riding a bike, but I still get a little frazzled trying to calm Ellis down in front of others and am totally scatterbrained when I have to think or do anything outside of taking care of my children. On a positive note, I am madly in love with the little guy already. I cannot stare at, hold or kiss him enough in any 24 hour period. Although Caroline has been an increasing challenge, the joy she brings me with the new things she does; songs she makes up, dances she does, new phrases she's picking up and her growing imagination, is enough to motivate me to be a better and more patient Mom with her every day.
I'm so glad Chris has changed to the four day work week. I don't feel so guilty spending a lot of time at home when we have three days with him home, to have plenty of family fun. I don't plan on spending the entire summer cooped up, but days like today, when it is 98 degrees out, there is no better place to be than in the air conditioned apartment and any place where I can't comfortably nurse at any given time is just not worth going right now. I have to say, I am really enjoying our little family of four.
The two places we've been to are the Wampatuck State Park and the mall. I thought the park was a good first choice because hardly anyone, besides a few bikers passing by, is ever there and I figured Caroline could run around without getting into too much trouble. Of course, the day I went the high school boys track team was jogging by as I was struggling nursing Ellis and Caroline found a bunch of buckets of catepillar eggs some school was trying to collect to mess with. The mall experience gave me flashbacks of going out with Caroline for the first time. It was cold, rainy and I didn't have either kid dressed warm enough and not five minutes after I got there, I was already scrambling to find a ladies room to nurse in. Why I didn't run into a dressing room, I don't know. Instead, I went into the JC Penney ladies room. Disapointed to find no sitting area, I was forced to drag the kids into the handicap stall, occupy Caroline with some yogurt raisins and sit on the floor next to the pee-sprayed toilet nursing my baby. This being my second time around, I have no excuse for not mapping out a better plan beforehand. And yes, Ellis threw up everything he drank all over me when he was finished.
Things are definitely a bit crazier with two. I actually have a deeper appreciation for both Caroline and Chris; Chris because of how much of a help he's been and Caroline because of the patience she's proven to have with me while I adjust to having a newborn again. In some ways, it is like riding a bike, but I still get a little frazzled trying to calm Ellis down in front of others and am totally scatterbrained when I have to think or do anything outside of taking care of my children. On a positive note, I am madly in love with the little guy already. I cannot stare at, hold or kiss him enough in any 24 hour period. Although Caroline has been an increasing challenge, the joy she brings me with the new things she does; songs she makes up, dances she does, new phrases she's picking up and her growing imagination, is enough to motivate me to be a better and more patient Mom with her every day.
I'm so glad Chris has changed to the four day work week. I don't feel so guilty spending a lot of time at home when we have three days with him home, to have plenty of family fun. I don't plan on spending the entire summer cooped up, but days like today, when it is 98 degrees out, there is no better place to be than in the air conditioned apartment and any place where I can't comfortably nurse at any given time is just not worth going right now. I have to say, I am really enjoying our little family of four.
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